Homeless Love
By Yaqeen Ul Haq Ahmad Sikander
Autumn brought you to me,
Like the whirling leaves of a maple tree
The Sun rose from my heart,
The soul’s dawn after dusk, a new start
You were my shining sun after rain
My love for you wasn’t in vain
You shared everything first with me
How easily did that love flee?
Your warm embrace I called my home
Your separation left my heart stray to roam
The winter brought a cold spell
It snatched your presence, left me unwell
You traded my heart for someone else
Listen to the voice of your soul, what it tells
You kept going on, never looking back,
Should have spared my heart that I now lack
Spring then arrived with full bloom,
It brought me nothing but gloom
The sun doesn’t rise for me anymore
It is buried in my heart, the one you tore
Then came summer
A time to remember
Your curly tresses and eyes so deep
Those thin fingers that cuddled me to sleep
I miss my name on your lips
The way you kissed my fingertips
In everything I miss your presence
You too I hope, in some things, miss my essence
You live in everything I touch
I did my best, maybe it wasn’t much
I tried to find in others your face
In each face all I see is your trace
I shall protest by the gates of heaven
Outside the doors whose number is seven
I refuse to go beyond without my Eden
In your absence, even paradise to me is forbidden
I don’t need death and deeds to enter Paradise
In my heart I carry you, little did you realise
Some distant birds only come by and fly
They go back home, far in the sky
Our story never ended, it just stopped along the way
Not every shipwrecked gets anchored to the bay
Either you were the wrong person
Or it was just my heart’s coercion
Either you are late to realize
Or I was early to idolize
From known to unknown, lovers to strangers
From us to me and we to I – countless misadventures
You were the ‘Sheherzade’ who in me scattered
A thousand and one tales that you once inspired
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Yaqeen Ul Haq Ahmad Sikander is from Kashmir, India. He graduated from International Islamic University Malaysia majoring in Psychology with a Theology minor. Currently, a Master’s student of Guidance & Counselling Psychology at Marmara University, he loves writing, camping, story-telling and philosophy. Working on his 3rd book now about self-help & spirituality which will be available by next year, he is also an aspiring novelist. He also runs a non-profit for Refugee Education & Youth Empowerment called ‘Inspire ME Global’. He can be reached at www.facebook.com/yaqeenulhaq or yaqeen@ymail.com